Pic shows: Playboy model Loredana Chivu discovered her father had killed himself after seeing she had become a nude model.
A Playboy model has spoken for the first time of her secret heartache after discovering her father had killed himself after seeing she had become a nude model.
Loredana Chivu had always had a close relationship with her father and said that changed when as an 18-year-old she had stripped off for a set nude photos in the Romanian edition of Playboy magazine.
She said: «He stopped speaking to me, he was pretty upset. I thought it would get over it and I never expected do something like himself. When he found out what I done he himself off from the and try to isolate me as well for the rest family.»
She has now revealed that when she went to reconcile with him a few months later, after deciding that the dispute had gone on long enough, she was horrified to find he had killed himself.
She said: «I found him hanging from a beam in the attic. I never recover from the shock of finding him. He had not left a suicide note, and everybody said that one up at the end it seemed cheerful, and it was a complete mystery as to why he would do something like this.»
The, now aged 25, said that ever since that moment six years ago she had been haunted by the fear that his motivation for killing himself was the row that they had. She said: «We had always been close and talked every day and suddenly that was stopped after the photographs.
«Even after all this time I find it hard to come up with words to talk about it, it is still too painful. I would not wish this on anyone. One of the worst things is not knowing, he didn’t seem to have any pressing problems at the time apart from our argument and I never would have thought he was a weak man who would take his own life. On the contrary, he was full of life, he enjoyed having fun.»
She added that loss was constant pain in her life that she has never understood, and after losing the chance to speak to him about their disagreement fears that she never will.